First Blog

Here is my first real venture into the world of blogging. I created a My Space page a few months ago (at the insistence of a friend), and posted a few things there. However, this forum seems a little more "grown up" than My Space. As I sit here talking about being grown up, I am listening to the "Song of Cebu" by the Veggie Tales - that just struck me as funny.

I decided to call it "Finding Kelly" because I have spent a lot of time lately thinking about who I have been, who I am, and who I am becoming. More than finding myself, I really want to discover who God has made me to be. I know some things that I am good at, and I am painfully aware of my weaknesses, but I think that is only the beginning. I'm reading "Captivating" by John & Stassi Eldredge, and that has started to awaken things in my soul that have been buried for many, many years. It has renewed my quest for beauty and redefined what beauty is to me. I used to think I knew exactly what God had "called me to", but now I'm not so sure.

I was recently faced with the question "What is your holy discontentment?" And after some careful thought I said "I don't know!" The idea behind holy discontentment is that whatever you find really upsetting (lack of education, bad music in the church, AIDS, poverty...) may be what God has called you to do something with. For the better part of my life, I would have said that bad music (or lack of understanding worship) was my holy discontentment, but I believe that God is stirring up something new in me. I just don't know what it is yet.